Monday, November 14, 2011

與神相交


 
我應該懼怕失信不忠過於我懼怕懲罰和被羞辱

我應該渴慕追求上帝的榮耀過於祂所賜的快樂

禱告是住在神的愛中

禱告是一種渴求 - 渴求上帝所期盼我們渴慕所得的

例如: 渴慕十字架,裡外被羞辱,老我被治死,上帝在我破碎生命的廢墟中建立祂的寶座

要在日常的瑣碎小事上實踐忠心,

比起在非常偉大的事上顯現美德是更重要

追求關愛別人不望回報,

但卻喜歡別人欣賞此舉

讓人知道我為己無所求,為主無保留

愛事用人 愛人用事


捨己越增多、平安滾滾來。

要在小事上好公義和真誠。

當我們不能忍耐別人的不完全、就肯定了我們自己是更不完全。

作一個忠心受教的人、就是要不斷否定你的自信、好叫你在弱勢中仍得益處。

要効法小孩的樣式、虛心接受管教。就是在你的困弱中,謙卑更能成為你的力量。

上帝要親自摧毀我們的自戀、

更要根治我們所深藏的自我。

神可輕易地揭露我們的隱私、

並攔阻撒旦在人心中的破壞。

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Love note to my beloved brothers and sisters

Dear brothers and sisters,
It has been a long time since I last wrote to you. I thanked God for giving me the opportunity to witness His work throughout the globe. My previous trip to China was indeed a meaningful and fruitful one. We were able to bring some M Christians to visit their own kinsmen in the remote part of China. This visit marked a new beginning of our work in that region for the last 5 years. We had been praying for this moment ever since we began our work there. To those of us, who were called to this mission project, this trip was truly a great accomplishment and an answered prayer. We felt like a bridge builder between the M church and the M people. We labored for many years to cultivate the soil, and a new seed was finally planted. We pray that this plant will grow and bear much fruits in the future. We covet your prayers for this exciting project down the road.

My journal writing was not consistent in the past few months. It was partly due to jetlag and traveling schedule. And the other reason was due to my evaluation of my journal writing in the past few years. Ever since I started to post my journal on the blog, I felt like my journal was more for edifying others than an intimate communication between me and Abba Father. Spiritual journal was supposed to be my transparent interaction with God. If I expect to write for others to read, I will tend to be “superficial” and more careful in sharing my naked thought and feeling. I did not feel like I was reading and meditating for this deep encountering, but for the growth of my beloved brothers and sisters like you, for which I have no regret at all. However, I felt like it is time for me to return to my previous journaling habit of writing for my own reading only. In this way, I will feel more at ease to dig deep into writing my prayer and reflection with God.

I hope I have demonstrated to you in the last few years of what spiritual journaling is all about, and motivated you to do the same. From now on, I will occasionally share my devotional thought with you, and update you about my ministry through my blog. But I will not send you my devotional reading on a daily basis. I pray that you will continue your walk in the Lord and draw close to Him each day.

I will have two more international trips in coming months. Afterward, it will be mainly domestic travel in North America. May God bless you with His own presence daily!

Love you in Him,
Lawrence

Friday, July 15, 2011

Devotional thought 150711

Dear brothers and sisters,
Good afternoon. I need your prayer support for a revival meeting that I will preach at Golden Gate Reform Church in San Francisco. The event will begin tonight, and I already experienced some spiritual attack that tried to distract my focus and preparation. I will be preaching tonight, tomorrow night and 2 services on Sunday. The theme that I will preach on is on how to renovate your life. My first sermon is on "how to renovate your heart," second is on "how to renovate your relationship," and the last one is on "how to renovate your church." Please pray that I will be faithful in delivering the messages that God placed in my heart.

I will be departing for China on this Sunday night. I am thrilled to be able to serve the English teachers in Jin Ping. We have been serving these teachers for several years. I am glad to bring people of different race to visit these teacher friends of ours through conversational English activity. They usually need a day or two to warm up before they can communicate with us freely. This year, we are happy to have several Mienh leaders to join us. We hope to also bring them to visit their kinsmen in the mountain region.

I will keep you posted if I have Internet accessibility. otherwise I will update you upon our return. We will return to Bay Area in the evening of 7/30. At the meantime, please cover us by your fervent prayers. Make sure to spend time interacting with God who is eager to bless you.

In His wonderful love,
Lawrence

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Devotional reading 070711

Dear brothers and sisters,
Good morning. It feels like yesterday since I last shared my devotional reading with you. But as a matter of fact, it has been many weeks…The traveling and ministry aboard were tiring but meaningful. I heard many testimonies about God’s faithfulness and calling in different people’s lives. It humbles us to see how lives changed through our interaction with one another and with God. I wished I had time to record all the sharing that told place in the last two months of my journey. I still have several overseas assignments before I return to my home based (North America) traveling schedule in October. Your prayer and support are greatly needed…

I did not have time to read The Other Side of Silence until this morning. On the road, I was reading a book on Spiritual Mentoring and lately one on Renovation of the Heart instead. It is good to return to this book and discover how different teachers of spirituality echo with each other on their views of spiritual growth or formation. I extracted part of Kelsey’s comments from chapter 12 for my own notes below:

There is a basic difference between those who see the universe as ultimately characterized by impersonal MIND and those who see it as principally LOVER…The idea of love between beings and God is based on the understanding that God is so deeply interested in the real physical world that He became incarnate in it, and that He is so deeply concerned about real human beings that He died for them. He wants us to become fellow coworkers with Him and so He makes His power available to us in the physical world. The individual who meets these realities in the inner self is constantly renewed, transformed and changed. There is suffering, but this is only part of the growing process and not the end of it. There seem to be no limits to the possible growth of the human psyche in its fellowship with God. One probability is that life in the hereafter is a continuation of the same growth process begun within the world of space and time.

At the same time there is another, almost equally important goal related to evil. While it is not popular these days to consider evil, particularly as a psyche, spiritual and metaphysical principle, not believing in it provides practically no insurance against its activity in our lives…Event the best of us need His help, not only against petty and self-seeking egotism, but in dealing with the Evil One or the very source of Evil.

The purpose of meditation must be understood in terms of God’s interest in this world and His desire to have us become free to relate to Him. He also offers to pay a ransom to help people become free from the destructive force that runs through all of reality. He offers this in the same way that the father offered his prodigal son acceptance and reconciliation in the story told by Jesus of Nazareth.

We find contact with God in the inner world, as well as finding contact with the power of Evil, and in both cases our way of learning about the contact and what it demands of us is through images…Mother Teresa of Avila described the prayer of quiet by saying that the will is lovingly fixed on God; the memory is occupied with His love too; the understanding is in darkness; the imagination romps and fools around wildly where it wishes. St. John of the Cross spoke plainly about the importance of disregarding images from within: For God begins to communicate Himself to our soul, no longer through senses, as He did aforetime, by means of reflections which joined and sundered its knowledge, but by pure spirit, into which consecutive reflections enter not, but He communicates Himself to it by an act of simple contemplation, to which neither the exterior nor the interior senses of the lower part of the soul can attain. From this time forward, therefore, imagination and fancy can find no support, in any mediation, and can gain no foothold by means thereof.” In spite of this thinking, St. John of the Cross continued to listen to his inner promptings all through his life, and his superb religious poetry contains some of the most sensual imagery.

What people experience as religious content depends largely on two factors: It is determined first by people’s psychological development, and second by their understanding of the structure of the world, or their world view, and the kind of experience it allows them to be open to. Our worldview is like a filter or lenses through which we see and interpret meaning of our circumstances. For example, why does God allow us to live through the kind of experiences we encounter today?

Lately, I have been praying for many of our cancer patients. We troubled by hearing these beloved ones of our going through this kind of illness. We always hoped to offer them some edifying words of comfort or explanation about their suffering. At the end, we ran into nothing but helplessness and silence. Our mind was blank and speechless. We stared into eternity with only one assurance: The God of eternity will not forsake us even though our senses do not conceive any signs and messages from above. At this stage of lives, our devotion and meditation seem to enter into another mode that is beyond human comprehension. This is what St. John of the Cross described as “the darkness of the soul.” Nevertheless, this darkness is not necessarily negative or bad. It is a waiting in uncertainty, which is part of His design for us to walk with an unfathomable God, and to understand His incomprehensible love for mankind.

I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge--that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God…. (Ephesians 3:17-19)

Share this love with you in Christ,
Lawrence
PS. I will depart for Vancouver, Canada tomorrow.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Devotional reading 060611

Dear brothers and sisters,
Good morning. I will be leaving for Hong Kong and Thailand today. This is mainly a training trip. I will conduct workshop in a Youth Mission Conference in Hong Kong, and in our annual mission internship training in northern Thailand. This is the first youth conference of this nature in Hong Kong. Pray that the Lord will raise up an army of young people like He did in the student movement of early last century. Many missionaries of today are products of this revival movement among college students in last century. I pray that the same Lord of Mission will bring renewal to the lives of many high school and college students, who will dedicate their lives for global missions in wherever God may place them.

Our God is a very personal God. In the book of Isaiah, God reminds His children through the proclamation of Isaiah, “Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, ‘This is the way; walk in it’" (30:21). This is the promise of the Lord. He will walk with us and remind us of our choices in life. God chooses to speak to us with little small voice if we pay attention to Him and seek His way. The world definitely wants to drown out the voice of God by various sounds and noises. It is our choice to focus on Him and His small voice.

A lot of time, we chose to listen to ourselves or what our body tell us to do. Our body craves for something that our appetite or hormone desires. Sometimes it is the commercial that tells us how we should choose. We forget to ask what the King of kings and Lord of lords wants. Our sweet Holy Spirit is the God who dwells within our souls who constant teach us and guide us in our paths of life. We are too busy to listen. No wonder why we feel like God is so quiet to a point of totally absence within us. God is faithful and kind. He is the heavenly father who will not forget His promises for His children.

We follow Him wherever we may be. We listen to Him in whatever situation we are in. Your God is with you in the marketplace. He uses you to make impact in your school and office. Only if we pay attention to what He has to say to us in gentle small voice, we will not be able to experience Him as a loving Father. It is God who puts you in wherever you are to serve Him. Ask yourself what God wants to speak and bless through you today. Your coworkers and neighbors will experience God by observing how you conduct your lives today. May God glorify Himself through your lives today!

Love you in Christ,
Lawrence

Friday, June 3, 2011

Devotional reading 030611

Dear brothers and sisters,
Good morning. It is so comforting to know that our God is “waiting” to bestow mercy to those who “wait” upon Him. 耶和華必然等候、要施恩給你們.必然興起、好憐憫你們.因為耶和華是公平的神.凡等候他的都是有福的 (30:18)。 What captivated me was the word “wait.” The Almighty Creator of the Universe chooses to wait for His children to repent and wait on Him. Isn’t it amazing that God will limit Himself – limits His divine character as the prime mover or ultimately proactive designer/author of both history and universe, in order to bless those who obey His agenda and timing for humanity. Wow…this is the kind of God whom we worship and walk with each day. Praise His Holy Name…Amen.
When will we need to wait for Him? It was during the time of suffering. We don’t feel like waiting when we are having fun in life. Usually we exercise patience when we don’t feel good or when things did not meet our desires or expectation. We expect our lives to be smooth and prosperous. We expect the economy of our nation to be healthy and strong. But when the economy does not turn around and unemployment continues to dive down, it requires patience to wait upon the Lord for His mercy. Yes, we continue to conduct our lives as everyone else – go to work and do our chores. But deep down inside our souls, we are not restless like those who run around in fear and worry. We rest in Him!
God wants His children to learn reliance through suffering. That’s why Isaiah said, “Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them.” Suffering is our teacher of life. It is through suffering that we draw closer to God. No matter how much warning did God proclaim to this generation, people do not repent and follow His way! They may remorse of their rebellion when they fall into the pit of suffering. Have mercy on us O Lord. Help us to see you and the lesson that you want us to learn while we are waiting for your deliverance from our affliction in life. We need you Lord. We need you.
Paul said, “The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God" (Romans 8:19-21). Our waiting in suffering is a preparation for eternal glory. If this is the case, we don’t need to feel restless or helpless. We can rejoice in Him at all times.
Please remember me in your prayer as I will depart for Hong Kong and Thailand on Monday. I will be leading different workshops in these two places for the entire month of June. Pray that God will continue to strengthen your walk with Him for your growth and well being.
In His love with you,
Lawrence

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Devotional reading 020611

Dear brothers and sisters,
Good morning. Our Lord is gracious and kind. He cares for all those who seek for Him. When I look back to the brothers and sisters whom we visited in Africa, we can’t cease to give thanks for how the Lord protects and provides for all those who serve Him with obedient heart.

Pastor Melody, the woman missionary from Taiwan, who answered God’s call to Nairobi many years ago, served faithfully among the poorest of the poor. Up to this day, she is still passionate in serving the people in the slum area. She is really outstanding in that area, because she was the only Chinese woman walking through the dirt road to the only school that she founded in the slum.

Pastor Jeff, the missionary from Singapore who was crippled by polio, answered the call to serve God in a war torn Uganda twenty some years ago. Even though the civil war had been ended many years ago, you could still see helplessness on many people face and inner city roads filled with many holes. A common joke in Uganda says, “If you drive straight in Uganda, it means you are drunk.” What is the hope of this country? Our Lord Jesus is their only answer. God used obedient servants like Jeff to bless this country with hundreds of new churches, two seminaries and all kinds of charitable projects among the poor. God demonstrated His power through a cripple in accomplishing all these for His glory. Indeed, it is not by human plans or power for all these good works. It is the work of God through His obedient servants

Again, the proclamation of God in Isaiah 30 proves to be true. This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says: "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it" (v15). God is the one who accomplish the impossible. Salvation and strength come from Him. Our busyness is not the way to accomplish His work. Only when we repent from our self-reliance and truly obey Him, we can witness His good work shines through impossibility.

If we are ready to calm down and let God be god, then we realize the source of our strength is in Him alone. God continued to reassure His people in verse 18 of the same chapter, "The LORD longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!” (v. 18)

Do you believe in this promise that God will bless those who wait for Him?

Love you in Christ,
Lawrence